Updated: Apr 1, 2020
It is 45 degrees and raining here, and the longest rumble of thunder I have ever heard just ended. Not at all uplifting, but at least it feels cozy to hunker down inside the house today.
My report from the homefront: My people have been doing really pretty well, and they have not really been terribly upset to stay at home and hang out all together.
We are beginning Week 2 of our shelter-at-home pandemic induced adventure, and we just got word that tonight begins the official 2-week stay-at-home-order from the governor. This feels different, but not much changes for us with this announcement.
I guess we don't mind being homebodies...but it has only been a week. I know this stay-at-home period of our lives is just getting started. I know they (we all) will grow restless and lose our patience with one another as time goes on.
How should we be feeling? I don't know.
I am feeling all of the feelings right now.
I feel frustrated with being stuck at home.
I am a little annoyed with my family for being hungry ALL OF THE TIME.
I'm irritated at their love of video games.
Thinking about how else we should be spending our time.
Pleased that they are fully entertained by socially-distanced things like video games.
Pumped that we can stay connected with social media.
Sad their school year is completely disrupted.
Happy to get to sleep in a bit.
Concerned that they won't go back at all this school year.
Nervous about homeschooling.
Intimidated by people who are super organized and productive right now.
Glad that I can try to copy their amazing chore/school/life organizing charts for my own days because they shared them and now I don't have to recreate the wheel.
Grumbly about toys, clothes and all the things being left out all over the house.
Relieved that we are in a suburban community with the ability to stay away from others.
Disappointed about all of the cancelled events.
Sorrowful for the weddings, graduation plans, trips, parties, get-togethers that may not get rescheduled.
Worried about the long term economic destruction of so many small businesses, and the impact of all of this chaos.
Fearful that all of the older people in our family will get sick and not get well again.
Wondering how our hospitals will be able to handle all of the sick patients and keep the physicians and nurses and staff healthy.
Devastated for the children whose families who do not or are not able to care for them well, or the kids who rely on school lunches for a decent meal.
Prayerful for those people.
Motivated to donate to my local food pantry and Salvation Army.
Proud that my people are not complaining (much) about staying home.
Joyful at having the extra down time with my family.
Grateful to be in a strong marriage.
Encouraged by people reaching out to do kind things for their neighbors in need.
Comforted by God's word that he will never leave us or forsake us. (Deuteronomy 31:6)
Soothed because God is in control and we do not need to be afraid. (Isaiah 41:10)
Lifted up by knowing that God uses all things for the good of those who love him and are called according to his purpose. (Romans 8:28)
Hopeful about this season of our lives being used to change us for the better.
Be the light in someone's darkness if you can. If you are stuck in the darkness right now, reach out to someone who can be a lighthouse for you. If you don't already have someone in your life like that, reach out to me and get you plugged in.
Everyone is going to struggle with this, but you don't have to do it alone.
I would say "Hugs!" But instead I will say, jazz hands!
Stay healthy, friends. And stay in touch. How are you feeling with all of this?
xo, Ann Marie